Epiphany ...

By definition, an epiphany is a sudden, intuitive perception of, or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.

I know we all have them as we travel this path to a newer version of who we always *thought* we were ... last Friday I had a new one. It's been a while since I've had one of those aha moments that weight loss can cause for us. Some of my first ones were fitting into a booth in a restaurant, having my wedding ring fall off, being able to sit in a chair with arms for the first time in YEARS ... but none had the "oh my God" impact that my most recent one had.

Because of the weight loss, I was able to have both knees replaced. While I'm glad I don't have to go back to have the 2nd one done, I can't honestly say I'm at the point where I would recommend anyone do both at once. I had them done August 25th and it's been a frustrating journey to recovery. However ... last Friday at physical therapy, my darling tormentor (otherwise known as my physical therapist lol)led me out of his office, around the corner and pointed to the staircase.

Now as I'm sure most of you can agree ... prior to weight loss the majority of us probably looked at stairs like they were Mt. Everest and something to be avoided at ALL costs ... So, when he pointed to them and said "Get going" ... my first reaction was to laugh and say yeah right. But he was serious, and since he's done amazing things for me so far, I decided to humor him and give them a try.

I made it to the 2nd floor.

I amazed myself.

I made him very happy.

But it wasn't until I was driving home that it dawned on me ... when we got to the top and stood there looking out the window at the scenery ... my knees were complaining ... but I wasn't out of breath. I wasn't sweating like I'd just run a marathon ... I was calmly standing there enjoying the view. The tears started and I almost had to pull over to the side of the road.

What a monumental, mind boggling epiphany!! I wasn't even breathing hard. I struggle weekly it seems with who this new person is. Having had bypass surgery April of '07 and two new knees this year ... there are days when I don't feel like I have a clue who I am anymore because of all the changes.

But last Friday the one thing I did know was ... I'm damned glad I was brave enough to take the step towards that new person. For any of you that are wavering on the edge of "Is this the right choice for me?" ... I would tell you it's the only choice. It's the most important choice you can make ... to give yourself the gift of health and freedom.